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2009-02-16T15:56:00.013+08:00

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Exams Finally Over......

2009-02-12T16:49:00.002+08:00

phew...exams finally over le...been busy frm cny til nw....gosh...

hmm, tis past 4 daes, i had telecomm on mon, dsp on tue, wireless on wed & Rf todae...past 3 papers nt tat difficult but todae de omg! damn difficult lo! sian...hais nvm ba, over jiu over le...

so sian sia, its jus 3 hrs after i finished my paper den im sian le...todae can relax le sia cos papers all finished le but jus few hrs im bored le...how how?

i think i will stop here le ba...alot things cant b blog =(
& really its so xinku keeping it inside....haiz...what exacty happened?

...

Meant to be in this way?

2009-01-10T00:44:00.004+08:00

hais...sian, my feeling rite now...bad, nt in a mood to haf a gd post...so, readers, u can choose to leave~ but, do listen to me...i've alot to say...

On wed, i went chu shi...it was terrible, to me...tat day, things were so unorganized...pissed off...

Xw...it'd slowed down...so slack; so aimless...

Wads happening in it.

Firstly, i apologise cos i was made to become so slack. Wad abt our aim? To me, we're nt as before...a group of 'fei long clan' & 'fei hu clan' le...we used to fought tgt, play tgt, learn tgt & even chiong tgt...but nw, alot were grown up le, went wrk, having ns, & even MIA...

Secondly, new ppl who comes in all think tat they are real impt & stuffs...they only eat soft, if harder, they will jus leave...fuk it! I dun gif a damn abt their attitude...u wan to learn, i teach u, provided i wan to c ur keen in learning & the right attitude in u...if nt, i'll jus leave u by aside & let u rot. idiots!

Lastly, new or even 'lao jiao' are becoming so rude to the elders & even nt able to be controlled...wad is this all about? If we scold u for being rude, u might sae we wan bu qi. If we let it go den dun care abt it, u all starts to pee on our heads...

Haiz...so sian...duno wads exactly so so wrong...hmmm, nvm ba, for the time being i think i'll try my v best pull up those few guys who are willing to learn. They are potential, talented... its jus the foot pace tat we are having our training...it slows down their learning process. But, im sure their initiative, hardwrk & determination will bring them to success...

I've words for them...Jus rmb, dun aimed tat low. Nwadaes kids only wan to learn wad they are interested in. But why? In a troupe, wad we nid exactly are those who performs well, right attitude, & lastly, wide variety of skills...If one wants be sucessful, everything also must learn!

Im old le, i cant chiong as steady as b4 le. On wed, i performed for ard 45mins-1hr, but im having a pain on my back nw...arghs...

Im ending here le ba...hope everything can be back to normal asap...

Results!

2009-01-05T23:08:00.003+08:00

Common test results:

RF- C (60-69/100)
Wireless- F (36-49/100)
Telecomm- C (60-69/100)
Dsp - B+(paper) (75-79/100)
78/100(labtest)

Hais, bwang sia my wireless...omg! Fail fail fail...waolao, i dunno how to take tis wireless sia, sian =(

Hmmm, nvm ba! Now prepare for Examination le...Papers are during the CNY sia, sian 1/2! Btw, its been few daes since i came in here le...Tis few days been okok only...just abit sick & tired of some things...hais...Abit on sintua peers, im glad tat few of them wrk as driver to deliver things...but to me, its like there're only few of us doing sintua things le, wad if dualiji comes? It cant be all having off rite? If only 1 or 2 cant come down cos nid to go wrk, its also a sort of jialat already...there're only countables less than 5 ppl tat knows hw to do things...Hmmm, nvm ba, i also have no control over ppl's affair...im sort of tired le...

Ns faster come ba, faster enlist & after tat wrk le ba...might not be tat active in those le...lost for words...

k ba, drop those things ba...xuejuan's bdae on tis sat sia. she ask mi go her chalet bbq but tis sat gt sintua sia...! Duno hw nehx...she inviting at least 70+ ppl sia...gosh, wide contact...

K ba, im ending here le...hmmm, hope tml can b a better day...I miss my gf >.< We are quite busy til we only met once or twice every week! She'll understand de...haha hao ba, gd nite everyone...

signing off~

Yoz

2008-12-31T00:27:00.004+08:00

hi, its been few days ever since my last post haha...sch reopened le ma so nv use com haha...hmm, so fast its wed tml, 3rd day of sch le...haha but im nt going sch cos half day ma so i get my frens to help mi scan & mark attendance haha...

Today, i got my RF result...haha! nv expect it will passed sia cos tat time i was busy wif troupe things so nv study tat much hahaha...but lucky i made it a C! haha...hmm, 3 more paper to go...scared sia~

Look at this foto, any comment for it?

haha, my girlfren love this pic alots so i decided to edit it or rather change the skin of it...haha, nv expect the pic to be like tat haha cos other pics which i edited, the outcome nv look like tis sia, humph...therefore nvm ba, let tis b the onli 1 pic with this skin hahaha...

ok ba, i gtg le...tml is new year eve le...
I hereby wish everyone a happy new year...

Same goes to my dear too, i wish i wish i wish......we'll be the same us ever as b4...loves <3

Its all about love...

Hi everyone~!

2008-12-26T22:51:00.007+08:00

This is my new painted room...hahas... =)
White, Grey & Red...

Grey~

Red & Grey~

Omg, See! She's stuffing my turtle...duno hw many times she fed my turtle today, haha~

I cant see wads she doing...

Sits still & smile... =)

She's so happy when she sees my face...

Im willing to die in ur hands...

Smile smile ^^

You left ur comb on my head!

2 idiots!

Von Dutch =)

She's happy wif tat small little thing on her hair...haha

We love reds~

You should learn to smile more...

She's a naughty girl... =D

Twist~

Look over here...

She likes to watch tv...hehe

Haha, hmmm, these are few pics which we took today...Basically, dear came to my at around 3-4+ after she met her frens for proj. V fast, today friday le. Next monday school reopens again! omg, 2 more months to exam again...

Okay ba, i shall end here...cya dudes, have a nice day & may god bless you...haha

Loving you always for now & then, Shirley...
<3

Xmas nearly got us off the beaten track!

2008-12-25T16:32:00.007+08:00

Things got better yesterday...It is nt a bad one though we solved it thru smsing, but its stil a bad way to resolve probs using text...hmm, bo bian, cos she is nt convenient to tok over the fone.

For today, initially things got worst when we were text each other...but at last i managed to tok to her over the fone. It might also nt b a gd way to resolve things over the fone cos one might get the words expression wrongly, but its stil far better den using smsing.

Shirley, i noe u are in a difficult position at times...things might turned out even more badly den we expected but at the end, i really hope tat we can always resolve them at a more calmly way.

Quarrels, i dun wan tis to be our xmas gift exchange...

Okay ba, i shall end here wif a smile =)

My dear,

Nothing can ever get us ended.

<3 u always, Shirley...

Love~

2008-12-24T14:37:00.003+08:00

LOVE~~~! It can b lovely, it can be hurtful...

Indeed, for me...im in a state whereby i realli cant express hw im feeling now, i'll try my best to pin my words thru tis post. Ever since we are tgt, I pumped in lots & lots of effort into tis relation, nevertheless, i wunt stop it unless i die earlier den her...however, the decision stil goes to her. Am i a gd bf of hers, i think she should noe it better den anyone including my family...

Readers, dun get it wrong, she do loves me as much as i do for her...its jus tat obstacles we faced gets even tougher when time goes by...

To shirley: "Im willing to cross any barriers with you provided u dun gif up on us" I've faith in you, therefore, do trust me & be confident in ursef.

Truely, there were lovely memories btw us, i wunt hide it. The thick n thins which we went thru & the quarrels or arguements tt we had really builds our bonding even stronger then b4.

At times, i do have difficulty to jus sit down wif her & discuss a better way out of our quarrels. I dun denied tat im always right, but things can be sorted out in a better way then jus let it kept in our heart. Sometimes, I might nt be right, but dun get mi wrong. Pardon me if im wrong, there arent any couples in the world which quarrels were nt involved in their relation, am i rite?

She's a clever gal, im sure tt she'll understand me when she gets to read this...ok ba, i shall end here le...

Loving you as much as before; Nothing gonna change my love for you...

ARGHZ

2008-12-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

sian, hmm tis few days i was busying wif my stuffs so nv had any update...

hais, its the last wk of holidaes le...so fast!

nth much to sae abt this few daes liao...

This Hurts Me...

Wads exactly in ur mind? Hope im having the wrong wonderings...but i cant jus stop thinking all these...i do care abt this, & seriously...i am!

Haiz, nvm ba...let time heal this...

signing off...

Its all abt love~

TIRING~

2008-12-13T02:38:00.002+08:00

hey guys, here im...hmmm been busy this few days so nv have any new post... =)

haha, for today, most of my time i spent it on tidying my bedrm. Hmm, im almost done wif it...think tml den continue le ba, its so late le...Nth much to say abt tis...

Grats to my dear, she had her last pp today & her exam were over...haha. Hmm, its been a few days seeing her being so stress le, nw her pp finished le she can relax le haha...Same goes to me, my pp were over a day b4 hers...haha...meet up soon yea ^^

Im going slp le ba, tired tired...cya again~ nites

=)

HI EVERYONE!

2008-12-05T00:57:00.004+08:00

im here again le...Just revised hao for tml de paper...phew, more or less finished memorizing 5 chapters le ^^ Tml will be meeting classmates at 12 for revision again, having my paper at 4.30 if nt wrong =)

hmm, overall nt bad todae, went sch at 9 to around 3 den came hm n rest le...

Oh ya, drove mama & bro to cp, he upgraded his plan & changed to samsung F480 too...Glad to see him so happy haha, 1 more week to Ns le, PLAY HARD!

FURTHERMORE...

imissyoualotz, my dear <3 cya real soon~

signing off~ takecare everyone =)

YO!

2008-12-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

hii, here im~! hmm, quite bored nw, haha so wanna jus have a simple post & tats all for the day...Hmm, todae went sch at 8 again! Go for a quiz den after tat went for lectures...

Im homed around 2pm...todae nv study tat much ba, no study mood haa...btw, i've upgraded my m1 plan & changed my fone to Samsung F480...Topped another 298 w/o any trade in...

K ba, i go orhorh le, tml sch at 9! so earli again! DOOPT!

Dear's having paper tml le, all the best for u dear! jiayou arhS! ^^

signing off le~ heman =)

IM BORED!

2008-12-02T16:44:00.002+08:00

im just back frm sch...todae so~ sian...morning went sch at 8 & had a job interview...Tis time our group was the interviewer...overall, nt bad...

Haiz im so bored & sians...zzzzz

signing off~
bye!

HUMPH!

2008-12-01T14:31:00.002+08:00

Ok, i jus start off wif todae 1st...i jus got home frm sch & had my lunch le. Hmm, actuali classmates asked mi study tgt wif them but i cant concentrate when alot ppl is studying tgt haha cos might end up chatting & playing only...

This morning i was furious over some things, u all might not noe wad isit...hmmm, i oso wont sae it out exactly...overall, sick of it liao...! If any or whoever disagrees me in doing this & angry over me, its alright wif me, Im having papers for tis & next wk, wads so wrong if i wan stay at hm & revise for it? I dun wanna neglect my studies too...Haiya, nvm ba...i've been taken as a granted one...Nvm, im sure w/o me, u all oso wunt die one...

(im nt being mean, Continue to take me as a granted one & im sure u've to find someone better to take over my place...)

Yesterday i did nth much too...hmm went sintua till 5-6+ den went courts to walk walk wif parents n had our dinner at hm (dabao frm coffeshop) Overall, nth much ytd...

k ba, i go rest awhile & continue wif my revision le...sian ah sian, everytime last year is always the most stress!

IM HOME!

2008-11-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

hahas, finally...home sweet home...haha

Jus back frm sintua wif family. Todae sintua's 21st anniversary le haha, been busy few months ago but nw 1 dae de celebration jiu zhe yang over le...

Hmm, Morning i went sch at 10-12 bused home & had my lunch. Then jiu zuo bo le, den nap awhile & study abit...OMG! I hate studying telecom, so much to memorize sia, sian sian sian...next fri having tis paper le i stil nt yet done wif my revision.

k ba, end here le ba...dozing off soon~ haha
gdnite everyone! =)

TIRED~

2008-11-28T00:29:00.004+08:00

hi, im here again~

Quite busy today, went sch b4 9 & had my interview presentation at 5+...Was nervous initially but after i intro mysef, everything was back to normal haha...

After school, went hougang mall drove mama...
Had dinner & had a short nap, & last but not least...study abit telecommunication... hard to memorize lo sians... Papers coming le, no time no time liao! Must chiong!

I miss my dear so much! Nv see her for few daes le, hope we can meet on sat & sun whahaha...takecare lotz my dear <3

hmmm, think i have to end here le, turning in soon~
gdnite & i'll be back soon =)

REVIVED

2008-11-26T23:28:00.004+08:00

Wooahz...this blog has been a history for around 1 & 1/2 yr ever since my last post @_@

haha, hmm i'll now give a latest info of my current statistic. Im still studying at NYP as per normal, having my final semester le...Im attached since 080808...

This is Shirley. She is 19 and currently studying at TP.

Hmmm, as you can see for my previous posts during last year, it had came to a rest & continuing, it will just b a history between us. Ever since the last post, i treated this blog as a historical experience of mine; and probably a sad one ba. Surprisingly i revived tis sad blog of mine, not bcos im stil hogging on tis matter, as i said it has been put to a rest for quite a long time...

OKAY, i;ve change my link to masterartpiece.blogspot.com le. and slowly, i will try to change the layout to a better one if i've the time. haha...

After such a long time, i think my readers all gone le...but nvm, as long as I keep it updated, this blog stil speaks for me...

我为人想谁为我想？ I've been thinking this sentence ever since sheng told me abt "those" stuffs. Ok, be frank & i dun hide, it regards the troupe stuffs...i can only leak tis out cos i jus wanna keep it low...In conclude, im jus disappointed; sick n tired of it...haiz

K ba, have to stop here le, going to prepare tml's presentation le...Gdnite ^^

To my dear shirley, may you have came across my blog, & read my past posts but nt taking them to heart...they are just bygones =) Gdnite to you & may the angel put u to slp with lotz of sweet dreams...<3 loving you always!

heman =)

2007-06-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

Its has been quite a long time since my last post le. Hmmm, tis one wk, do nth sia. argh! Nth much to sae abt my this wk. hmmm, im quite ok le, working very hard to change and arrange everything in my life >.< stress ar. Hope can ok soon bahx

2007-06-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

I here le. Hmmm, feeling so sians n stuffs. ARGH!!! Bcoz i knew wad more can i sae? The more i sae, its oso like tat de. No more strength le. Duno bahx, its been quite a time le, stil like tat. Nvm ba, live a dae, c a dae bahx.

2007-06-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

Im here to update my blog le. Hmmm, this few daes quite busy ba so nv come in. Tired, just came up frm washing dad's van. He todae can come home le. Later gonna fetch him home lo. ArggHH!!!! i go bathe already, byebyex! =p

loving my everything!

2007-06-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

2007-06-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

Im back frm hospital le. Hmmm, todae almost whole class run away frm nite class, haha. Mi oso ran away lo. Todae is jimmy's bdae. We celebrate in south canteen. Very fun too haha, alex make the cream on my face sia, den i haf to come home bathe den can c ahpa. Hmmm, todae quite tired bcoz ytd 4+ den slp ma.

Take it or leave it;forgive & forget?

Hmmm, think i will try my best to forgive & forget. Realli dun wanna choose tis, but i think it will affect yingx n me. She oso wunt wanna c mi like tat. Hmmm, i think jus gif her some time ba. I oso try to take this as a break for mi, same goes for her, hope to recover soon from everything. Wad can i sae ar, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, if we have tat fate, one dae we oso can b back together de bahx. hope i can rest well. =) Mayb being always happy can help mi to recover faster. Happy happy happy! U made my life so happy once, hope we can b tgt again one dae ba. Live well, takecare.

2007-06-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

MONDAY;A BAD DAY!

Hmmm, since tis term starts, i hate mondae! Dun ask mi why, i wunt sae out de! Sianss, mi jus back from hospital. Todae after sch 6pm den straight go c ahpa le. Always dun feel like staying at home, realli makes mi feel so sians. Haizz, i duno wad to do liao, did i realli sae something wrong? i sae nth lo, she jus went off.

Im already vry tired liao, pls dun treat mi like tat. Everything jus making mi feel more n more tired of my life. Duno wad can b done now. My lifes in a real mess nw! sians. If u oso cant understand how i feel, i think no one else can le ba. If things can b change, i wunt come to tis sch! Haizz. =( xin shi wu ren zhi.

2007-06-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

Im here! Tis morning i nearli cant wake up sia. I set alarm at 7 but woke up at 8 lo. Lucki ahbu woke mi up. But nvm ba, nv late for chushi. We help longyi 1st, saw lots of troupes. Hmmm, all shaolin pai de ba. So qiao sia, saw realli lots of frens frm other troupes. LOng time no c le, cant recognise them haha. Chat quite alots ba...
After helping longyi, we helped longtianmen. Chu 1dragon 5lions lo. Help till so sians, haiz. Den after tat, i go shentan den after tat ahtat ge drive mi home for bathe den i drive go c dad le lo. Feel so shag lo. ArgHh!

Just nw 9+ den reached home. Just ate hao dinner, but heaven bathe yet lo, lazy ar!!! Aiyoz, trying to help yingx but, duno nehx. Jus noe her proj topic, but jus haf communication problems wif her lo. Making us pekche? Hope no ba, hope she wunt b stressed by it. She's doing proj nw lo. Wonder wad i can help, haizz. Duno wad happened! She jus~, duno la. haizz. she no mood;i no mood. Life's so miserable;its jus so empty & meaningless. Haizz, gal ar, wrk hard & fght till the end, ok?! Same goes to mi ba, i'll wrk hard de. This is the 1st time i took such a long time to write this post lo, i think abt 1-2hr+. Hope tml can b a better dae! HOPE so! I HATE MONDAE!

2007-06-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

Me just came back from hospital. Hmmm, my house de 2coms jus reformat hao, but sad de is most of my songs all lost le. Nvm ba, wan listen den go haoting.com lo. Sianss ar, mi todae whole dae at hospital pei ahpa. He better todae le. Hope he can get well soon n discharge frm hospital. Hmmm, miss gal realli badly, duno wad can b done to help mi. Love her too much le, its so deep tat i jus cant get out =( Hope tml can b a better day ba. Tml morning 9am nid chushi, ArgGHHH!!!! I go slp le ba, ytd no slp lo, jus cant stop thinking past things. Realli no think b4 im in this state nw. Haizz, walk 1 step c 1 step ba. nitex!

2007-06-01T23:31:00.001+08:00

Wo hen sians ar!!! Real sian, haizzz. moodlesss nw lo =(
Jus edit hao my blog. Hmmm, wonder where's yingx nw. haizz, i duno wad to do nehx, cant be always like tat, but cant help mysef too;real fan lo. My life's jus sucks nw =(

2007-06-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from hospital. Hmmm, todae ahpa better le, think ahpa nt so fast can come home ba. sIanss sia, feel so tired lo. Im not in rite mood todae lo, duno nehx, jus feel realli something so amiss. Real stressed up nehx, =(

Todae sch 10-5pm, so sians sia. Dun feel like going sch lo, but gt math. Den after sch, mi straight go to hospital. Hmmm duno sia, realli duno hw to go on lo. Alot of things just made mi so stressed, haizz Duno ba, hope can rest well.

2007-06-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHA!!! Me lai lo!!! Ytd damn tired sia, tats y never post hehe. Hmm, ytd we helped jit heng chu 2dragons. Hmmmm, there are a total of 36 dragons there bahx, & duno hw many lions. Ytd quite fun ba, i saw 10-12 hueychias. Not pu tong one lo, chingay tat type of floats which is real ridiculars whereby i cant even find where the driver is hahaha. stupid me. Even saw our members help other troupex, haizz, kuku them. a bunch of rubbish lo. =.- Dun care them ba, ytd jit heng have 18dragons, the rest is bao by other troupes.

Todae, i nearli cant wake up sia, hmmm actuali plan to wake up at 8. Den at last wake up 8-9+ haha bcoz ytd slp at 3+. But manage to go c ahpa lo. He todae better alot le, can sit n lie by himself. hehe, but he still pain pain. Hope he gt well soon ba. Todae, im very happy, yingx sae wanna come c ahpa but my frens there. Nvm ba, im real glad tat she stil hen you xin wan come. My parents oso noe abt it le, they happy happy oso. They sae free den visit oso can de. =) Me todae go sintua, vesak dae todae, so gt the lian hua candles. Hmmm, todae in sintua, god oso ask us sing 12lotus flower haha. Mi onli learned till 6 lo, the rest read paper n sing, hahahahahaha, quite fun in sintua todae oso. Overall for todae, im still v.happy hehehexxx. Jus came back frm sintua oso. I hope everydae can b like todae, hope everydae can turn to b a gd one! Yingx ar, i think u see mi like tat u oso happy, hmmm u oso must b happy ar. Actuali ar, still always missing u haha, but nvm ba, let everything goes as it is lo. Still loving u as b4 sia, >.< shy~

2007-05-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from sch. Hmmm, been headache since afternoon le. But at last tong till sch end den go home. Actuali wan go c ahpa de, but he sae dun nid n ask mi go hm rest. Ahpa's condition is like ytd ba. Hmm, doc sae nth, jus bone abit crack. Nid rest den ok le. hope ahpa fastfast ok ar. Me nw stress lots of things sia, sianss. I wan everything back nehx! Duno ba, slowli earn back ba.

-tuesdae 29.05.07-

2007-05-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

HAIYA!!! Todae nt a gd dae lo, earli in the morning i vry headache liao. Dun feel like going sch, but bo bian so went for sch. Im so stressed up wif my things, even quarrel wif ying. Haizz, duno wad to do. Den after 1 lesson, i bth liao. v.headache den go home. 3-4+ someone call mi n sae my dad in hospital. Dad was injured when he work, badli injured lo. was knocked by something v.heavy den hit a metal den whole waist blueblack. He is in great pain even nw. Haizz, so xing tong lo. Ahpa ar, u haf to fast fast get well ar. Hope after u ok, den dun wrk tis liao ba. Vry dangerous job lo. Haiz. Nth can b more impt den u all lo. Dad nw is in hospital =( Real sad. Duno wad to sae le, my life's already nt gd le, pls dun take away anymore things or wad from mi.

-mondae 28.05.07-

2007-05-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

IM HERE AGAIN!!! Jus came back frm chushi. SO tiring, todae we helped longtianmen chu 10 big dolls which ppl named them as 'sin jiong'. There are '8jia jiang' n 'dua li ya pei' lo. Nice to play, we dance using tat! LOL. Hmmm, sunburn nw le. Frm morning yewkeng till nite 10-11+. But we onli perform at 1st n last place. Haha, the rest whole dae we do nth, we eat, slp, chat, play on lorry lo. Quite fun ba, but always wait for tis wait for tat lo. Go a place den keep 'too si gan', den drag drag time. There are long jin, long lin, long feng which is all open by longtianmen =.- & saw tian ying, feng yi too lo. Todae i learn lots of things, hehe. Sians ar, tml sch again! sians, i hate mondae de lo, duno y. haizzz~ Next chushi is on nex wed, fuo ya shi. Another big event, think gt 30+ or 50+ dragons HAHA!!!. But we help jit heng chu 2dragons. Siansss ar, nw my troupe things nt so bad as b4 liao, hope i can deal well wif sintua things nw. Stil gt many things sia, haiyozzzz. K ba, end here le. Hope tml can b a gd dae for mi~

-sundae 27.05.07-

2007-05-27T01:36:00.001+08:00

IM HERE!!! So tired nw, jus came back from chushi. Yewkeng lo, lolx. Hmm, gt wen yi n lian sheng tang. They gt cheng chia lo, we oso gt WHAHA!!! Hmmm, our zhan che hehex. Vry tiring when yewkeng lo, but fun. We even dance haha. our chengchia, there is disco lights, smoke machine, L.E.D lights n 2big speakers. HAHA, think ppl c us like tat they sure jealous. LOL, overall for todae is fun, but my hand v.pain n like wanna break le lo. The sintua oso weird weird lo, LOL, the way they do things so qi guai. wen yi chu 1 dragon, liangshengtang chu 3lions, n we chu 9baby dragons n 1 qiling =p .We saw namsieng too, jus 2lions ba. They at 'qi zhong' 1 place n welcome us.

Todae, we took some pics, LOL! tat lorry onli 4-5ppl. haha. the rest on another lorry. We sing, we chat, we take fotos n stuffs. Hmmm, few of them oso like mi lo, ralations problems =( todae even heard few ppl saying love realli hurts. Haizz Haizz.

Sians ar, tml stil earli wake up. Help ltm lo, 9am must reach paya lebar! so stunt, so earli. Hope nt tired dae for tml.

Hmmmm, quite a long time no ask yingx out le, realli miss her lots. We contact is like so little lo. Haizz, y like tat nehx? God always gif mi new things but always take away somethings de. So sians. Nvm ba, i think i go slp le, tml den contact her bahx.

2007-05-25T01:54:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, jus chat hao wif yingx. slp bu zao ar, i feel her realli nt herself whom she usuali like. Realli xin tong lo;real painful. Hmmm, sianss, ltr in sch stil gt 2 sort of tests lo. I nv study, =( Jus nw help feng yi chu shi, help dem run a dragon. Nt bad overall, but i dun quite like hw they do things or wad ba. Nvm ba, im nt frm there either, wunt affect my life too.

I realli nid her, so to pull mi thru my tis state, but dun think so ba. Sian ar sian!!! Nth is fair in this world. I think i gonna hate mysef le ba =( cry~ Hope after i wake up den my fridae can b a better dae ba.

2007-05-24T01:54:00.001+08:00

Without u
wats a wedding without a bride n groom,
wats spring if the flowers dont bloom.
wats my life like if theres no u n me,
its incomplete and meaningless, its jus empty.

Life was crazy b4 i met u, i didn kno how i wuld get by,
now wen i feel like givin up ur there encouragin me to try.
and wen im stressed and alone ur the one i run to,
cuz in u, i find so much comfort and the strength needed to pull thru.

Life has changed so much since u walked into my heart,
Cuz we share a bond of love dat no one culd part.
And if u were to eva leave my side i dont kno wat i wuld do,
cuz lifes incomplete and meaningless, its jus empty witout u.

2007-05-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

The perfect one for me

When I think of how we met I wonder was it fate? was it chance?

I only know that when Im with you I have this feeling of completeness that I have never felt before...

A warm feeling that begins with just a look from you...

A touch from you and I feel my mind and body begin to melt...

Being in your arms I feel safer and stronger than I have ever felt...

You give me the courage to be the real me...

You look at me and I feel special...

I dont know why or how we found each other,

I only know that being with you makes me a better person...

2007-05-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

Mi ytd no slp well. Hmmm, feeling so stress lo. i slpt frm 1-2+ till 5+ den wake up liao, canot slp at all. Sitting in the room viewing frenster n see pics. Real sian, hmm gt a few times nearli cry out too, but jus controlled it. Till 6-7+am den i ask ahpa whether i can go wrk ma, bcoz i dun wanna stay at hm. But ar, tot at wrk den wunt think of anything le, but same thing jus happen, been wrking whole dae w/o concentrating lo, even cut my hand too, tat stupid knife la, so sharp. Haizz. Hmmm, quite a tiring dae, but when boss gif mi pay, den v.happy. Ok ba, 50bucks onli, cant sae alot, cant sae less.

After wrk, came hm bath liao den go out again le, go fxg eat dinner. Hmmm, nth special tis year during their dinner ba. But saw 2 uncles nearli fight. OMG, uncles ar, already 1 leg in coffin liao stil wei le small matter wan fght, haizz. They realli make a big fuss out there, so shameful. tsk tsk. Sianss ar, mi nw do nth. jus using com, waiting for time to take my mask out. Wanna chat wif yingx on fone de, but i put mask. Later den c hw ba, if she nt aslp den i call her n chat chat lo. Ok ba, end here todae le ba. Hope tml can b a better dae. Having chushi for next 4daes, thurs, fri, sat & sun. wEeEee!!!

-wednesdae 23.05.07-

2007-05-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

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2007-05-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

I felt e way u treat mi is so cold. Realli in a painful state nw. Hais, disapointed;sad. Duno wad to sae le ba. Im nt the usual mi already. A big fell, the usual mi is like already died. No one understand hw i feel. I cant b bad, i cant b gd either, wad can i be? cry =(

2007-05-21T11:36:00.000+08:00

Haizzz ya!!! Sian ar sIans, realli felt so headached nw. Haf to tell yingx dun always like moodless moodless. when i c her like tat, i realli felt so heart pain ar & nothing i can do to help! Realli feel so painful. Todae i nv go sch, they having lesson nw lo. Haizz 1st thing i got up in the morniing, i tot of yingx den sintua den troupe den studies, realli make my dae lost half. Ytd i wish todae can b a better dae but~ duno lahs. So sians to go sch nw. Haizzz, i noe yingx would'nt wan mi to b like tat, but i cant do anithng, duno wad to do nw. Like lossing everything already. Left wif nothing. Sianss ar!!! Everything's like in a real mess nw. Haiz, yingx ar, how i wish u r like in the past, always cheerful n wunt b bothered by anithing de. Duno bahx, dun always like tat ar, it saddens mi more when u like tat.

Lucki i stil have my ahpa ahma n my caring kor, they realli stood up n help mi alots. Hmmmm, felt so si pai. When can i realli stand up again?

-mondae 21.05.07-

2007-05-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

Haiyazzzz!!! Its realli everything's predestined. Few daes ago, i jus guessed tat troupe sure gt problem or quarrel in this few daes or wad. Realli it happened! Haizz, me todae quarrel wif 2guan. Just argued over a small matter. Realli felt so sians in everything le ba. Few daes ago, i jus tot tat mayb im left wif my troupe ba, so do it well ba. But tis thing jus happened! Im sick n tired of it le ba, jus thinking nt worth it when 2guan quarrelled wif mi over this thing. Sae tis matter till here ba. When he is shouted at by kids when play or wad, he oso dun care de lo, n jus diam diam lo, den i always at side scold or sae back kids de lo. Nt bcoz he my cousin, he is our HEAD! Hw can kids rude to him? I duno la, if those few of them realli meant so much to him or troupe. By all means ba, mayb he dun nid mi lo. Nt i proud or wad, he will regret de la. Those kids noe wad? Onli noe hw to use mouth tok but nv even do lo. Those kids no power, no skills, no nothing but jus a mouth, if u realli dote them tat much, one dae u'll jus regret ba. Nt tat i dun side u in anything nwadaes, jus feel realli ridiculous ba. I used to side on u, but i cant take it le ba. Im like jus a idiot doing this. SIAN!!!

Haizz, im left wif nth gd le ba. Do heaven realli wan make mi suffer? Nvm ba, its so obvious lo, i jus lost or sick of everything in such a short time. Nw v.tired, jus came back frm chushi. Its fun when chushi, but sick n tired of maintaining those matters. Mayb u jus take mi for granted or wad ba. Soon one dae i'll jus listen to ur parents n leave u n everything unattended. Im like a idiot nw, so commited in everything but jus dun success lo. I haf my reason for nt quiting or letting anything go, but~, duno lahs, hope tml can b a better dae ba. ArgHHhh!!! Sae so much oso no use, but nvm ba, at least i can post tis out, dun always keep everything inside mi.

-Sundae 20.05.07-

2007-05-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Me here again le!!! waaa, tired tired lors, jus chu wan shi. hmm todae chu 2lions 1qiling at tamp, a small sintua. Hmmm, they put beer in de 'qing' lo, den boon & i perform. But i nv drink ba haha, i dun drink beer one hehex. hmmm, long time no perform liao den nw after performed, legs so sour lo. And like legs no strength like tat, haha. Hmm tml stil gt chushi lo, same place haha.

Hmmm, above pics are xuanwu's new hueychia, haha. Its 'orh leng chia', black flag god's hueychia. Hmmm, tis float was out for more den a month le, im vry happy, i design n diy de hueychia. HeeHee. but oso gt help frm ahboon, thankz him for helping mi cut wood. Hmmm, hope can haf more ideas n do more de, xuanwu's spirit never rest! xw xw pbt!!! haha. People frm outside if gt 'kang tou' & wanna make floats, find mi ba. I slowli learning le hehex. Me n ahboon helped Xw make 3 this types of floats le.

This morning, i went out wif bighead. Go amk walk2 & eat2 haha, stil gt play pool. =P hmmm, actuali nth much to walk walk ba, den go few hours den back hm le. Den prepare ourselves liao & wait for dad come hm den we go chushi le lo. After chushi, mi actuali wan meet yingx go eat de, but in the end follow the gang go bedok 511 there eat. Sry ar yingx, i realli wan pei u eat de, miss u so badli le. But dad driving ma, den uncle seng ask us go eat den we jus follow lo. Yingx wrking tml too, but mi stil gt chushi. Realli wan meet her out nehx, sIanss ar!!! Hao ba, end here le ba. He <3 Yingx lots!!! byexxx hehex

-saturdae 19.05.07-

2007-05-18T18:32:00.001+08:00

We are like strangers le. I duno wad to sae, how to sae. Since sch reopen till nw, we rareli tok. haizz, i think even she n my classmates de frenship better den mi n her ba. Frm our close kuan xi till nw tis state, i realli feel so low mood. Sad ar! No one will understand me de ba, if one could, can he or she believes hw much i did for her? haizz. I duno wads in her mind, hope she realli noe wad she doing or wad ba. Im vry sad, realli sad. wei le her, i screwed up my everything. I duno hw to go on like tat. Jus nw, i saw them tgt, happily walking. My heart sank. sad ar!!! y cant i let her go, but i jus love her lots. =( i love her, but i hate her. Realli hate her, but realli love her alots!!!

-fridae 18.05.07-

2007-05-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

Im here again. Jus came back frm sintua, so sianss ar!!! So stress in everything recentli, even my sintua lo. I duno hw lehz, dun wish to end anythng lo. Jus nw after sintua, i drove the van. When in van, the way i reply mum is like so rude lo, haIzz, think she noe hw i feel tats y no scold mi for my rudeness ba. Me drive hm less den 10mins lo. Omg!!! I jus nw is like nv care anything lo. Ahpa c mi drive, he oso diam2. Wad a bad son they haf =( Hope i wunt like tat anymore le ba, sry papa n mama, i oso dunwan like tat de. Ying ar, can c u better todae le. Be happy ar, u happy, den i can b happy too.

-Thursdae 17.05.07-

2007-05-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

Argghhh, gal ar gal. wad u doing nw arx? ur hp off diao le. So dan xin u arx. Omg!!! Want go slp, but just cant slp frm jus nw till nw. Nt feeling well nw sia, fever le. Hope gal will take care hersef. =(

-Thursdae 17.05.07-

2007-05-17T00:12:00.001+08:00

Im here again le. Just finish making math notes. Hmmm, duno wad or hw to sae. I chat wif ying jus nw, i see her so weird weird nehx, but she jus sae shes ok. We chat like less den 5 mins lo den she sae she wanna b alone den offlined le. Gosh~, did i made her like tat? I duno wad to do nehx, haiz haiz she wunt tell mi y she like tat de. I nid her to tok, to tell mi wad she wans or dunwan me to do if im realli the one who caused her to b like tat. Hope im nt the one ba. Yingx ar yingx, if u happen to read tis post, try to understand wad i wan ok? I dunwan u to b no mood no mood. If im realli the one who make u like tat, let mi noe. We haf been lagging of communications le, u take gd care ba. Study hard too! arghhh!!!

-Wednesday 16.05.07-

2007-05-16T19:38:00.000+08:00

ARGGHHH!!! This is the 3rd time i retype this liao lo. kuku. This pic scary rite? Like devil, so ugly lo. I took it using my fren's hp last wk. Todae realli sians sia, i rot at hm till wanna decompose liao lo. So slack at hm nia, sianss. I msg n call yingx lots of time todae oso. thInk she hate mi alot ba, hope wunt! I dunnoe wad to do nehx, sianss. Im in a devastated state nw lo. My sch wrk also so unorganized sia, dunoe when den i can realli like sit down n plan n reshuffle my sch wrk n matters, =( i dun wanna let relation problems to like affecting my everything sia. Sieng zai ya ar! Can help mi anot? Always eat my candies den dunwan help mi. At least change mi back to study mode ma. After dinner i go do my sch wrk le ba, borrow notes frm yingx stil hvn copy yet lo, so long already. I go help mum make dinner le ba, sIanss sianss sianss. <3 yingx realli lots but~ duno bahs, vry fan nao nwadaes >.<

-wednesdae 16.05.07-

2007-05-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

She is the gal whom i amire most! Hmm, i noe her abt 1year+ le. A cheerful n adorable gal. I dote her alot lo. She always support mi in wadeva i do except mi throwing my temper. Frankly speaking, im a bad-tempered guy. I can easily throw my temper when things dun smooth me. But since im close wif her, i can feel i realli changed alot. When we were together, im vry happy. I dun feel stress or anything, always jus feeling tat wad i do will be a sucessful one ba, bcoz she is supportive and always support mi. She wunt ask for more, will just follow wad i sae or wad. Hmm, wad i can sae abt her is, a nice gal ba. These made me realli fall for her, And its a vry big fall for her, tat i cant get myself out of her world ba, im deeply rooted in her life. Recently, something happened tat makes mi felt really sad. I dun wanna bring this out ba. A big blank in my life nw w/o her, hmm, feeling so helpless ar~. Sometimes, i realli duno wad i do nw is correct or not. Dun wan to lose her, & i dunwan her to hate mi. Duno~~, hope wont ba. I always follow wad my heart wants bcoz i realli love her alots! Arggghhhhh!!!! Sianss arx! A deep scar in my life. Nvm ba, hope u'll come back one day.

Todae! a tiring dae! lesson frm 10am to 9.30pm lo. But i skipped my 1st 1hr lesson in morning haha, i reached sch at abt 12.20+. tat computing's teacher so kukubird, mark mi as late lo. haizzz But nw after sch le, vry jin shen le haha. Felt so sian at hm, feel like going out but nowhere to go haha. Hope tml can be a better day!

-tuesday 15.05.07-

2007-05-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

Haizzz!!! Ahhe ar Ahhe, she realli no treat u the way she treat as u b4 or u r jus being sensitive?
sian ar sian!!! feel so restless. haiz haizz sianss!!!!

Stomach very upset! kuku noodles! mi onli ate tat small amount noodles for dinner den i felt so full liao den i nv eat anithing liao. Nowonder is tat noodles nt gd ba, make mi so sick lo.

sIanss ar, y my life tis recentli like so low one? im so lousy. Stresss on everything ar! Hope i can faster recover to real me. >.<

i went for a hair-cut just now, hmm, im happy tat i got my hair cut, haha. wanna start everything anew. Miss my everything in the past ar~, Hope it will be back ba. I dunwan to b gd at everything, but i jus wan to b gd in anythng =p haha, duno wad i toking nehx. Free den update my blog ba.

-monday 14.05.07-

2007-05-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHA!!! Todae, a tiring day. But a fun day. hehexx. We help guan nan run a dragon at geylang. hmm, there are a total of 27-30 dragons and 3 'da jia shi' which is green lions, from zhonghua. hand pain ar, hand pain ar! run dragon head till my whole arm so strengthless nw. haha, sian ar sian, mi saw alots of xw ppl & ex-xw ppl lo. haizz haizz, vry disapointed! Those are ppl whom i dote most but they jus make mi dispointed nw.

Nvm ba, hope they can play well n learn more at other troupes. I'll always welcome u all back to xw if uall wanna come back! But i haf to also go thru 2 heads who is uncle n 2guan. All zhang da le, hope u all wunt forget me ba. I vry glad tat u all at least gt come n call me. hehexxx. we cant b troupe frens, but at outside oso frens ba. Me learnt to noe hw frens are important, thankz s.y.ying! for teaching me hw to zhen xi frens. To all those frens whom i saw jus now, takecare ba, keep in contact ar! haha =P

I learned quite many things todae! Nw i roughli noe where Xw stands le, hmmm, keep up ur gd wrk ba Xuanwu! Hmm, i saw tat fotographer todae, hehex. he was the one whom help xw to take lots of nice view pics frm last year 1st may fongxuangong's yewkeng. i told him tis year they no call us le, he sae so wasted sia. he wanna c our floats. But nvm ba, he sae he going take pics of other troupes huey chias n c hw badli ppl done haha. hope fxg will get to c n compare ba. Unless another troupe is namsieng. haha, my idol troupe. pei fu them! tsktsk.

End all those troupes matters le ba! Hmmm, I miss yingx alots! I dun get to zhen xi her so much until recentli ba. After she left, den i noe hw gd n impt tat she was to mi le. Hope nt too late ba, mayb nw its jus the time she nids to haf some freedom n stuffs. realli dun dare to face her n let her noe hw much she meant to me, normali i will jus tell in smses, msn? jus dun feel gd ba. almost 1yr le since i sae i like her. Hmm, hope she will rmb those beautiful memories ba, i will continue trying my very best ba. Realli dun wish to lose her, =..( Being tgt wif her makes me understand hw fortunate i m, she supports mi in everything i do, make mi so confident. Fangxin ba, ying, i will change my temper de. Hungry nw. whaha! tml stil earli sch, so siansss. Oops! hvn copy notes tat ying lend me >.<>

-sundae 13.5.07-

2007-05-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

This two is my ahgong n ahma. And tat is ahgong de bdae cake! yumyum. SEE! minghao hungry liao, wahaha!

Today, is my ahgong's birthdae!!!

Can sae mostli all my dad's side relatives came to my hse. wahahaha!!! Tis celebration is held at my hse. =) Todae ar, gt 50+ ppl lo, so many many ppl & its so fun. But, ying was not here todae. hmmm, realli miss her. Nvm ba. she had her reason. But hor, gt relative ask wheres her, and i jus sae she wrking. Haiyoyozzz, todae my xiaohongjin (arowana), v.scared lo. OMG, my nieces n newphews keep go disturb it. knock its tank!!! Hope my fish stil ok ba, its staying at same spot le. mayb it jus rest rest ba. afternoon ar, i can c him like so 'hiong' lo. lucki my tank haf closed rooftop haha, if nt my fish duno when going jump out le. haha

Todae i never see my newphew byran! haha, he is so cute de lo. cubby cubby de. hmmm, todae dun get to see him, den i think ah ma de bdae den can see him le ba. haha. the last time i see him was chinese new year lo. so long ago le haha.

But, today my ahpa sick. i borrow his vehicle & wanna go sch & play badminton wif cousins de. Den by rite is evening den i haf to drive him home. But i drove him home at noon le. Sadsad ar, he nw slping le, stil nt ok yet, haizzz. hope ahpa can fast fast okays.

Todae actuali can go sch play badminton de. f**k tat secuity guard ba, jus dun allow my cousins in. hmm at last we no play lo, we go ahgong hse sit sit eat lunch n toktok. haha